simplicity.

2007-12-14T11:47:00.000+08:00

Yes i'm finally back.
After like almost 5 months.
Now that O levels is over,
SJAB Farewell is over,
Prom is over,
Class chalet is over,
Squad chalet is over,
My secondary school life is over.

Well, it is all over, but yeah we'll
still keep in touch and all.
MMM. I finally decided
to update my blog becuase i remembered
my password. HAH.
Now everyone is commenting that my
life is stuck at NAPFA test. HAH.

Life has been pretty good, umm i mean slack
since Os have ended. I have just been enjoying life,
spending time with my friends and family, doing
lots of shopping and spending lots of money :(
That's pretty bad. That's why i got a job to
earn money and save up for next year.
But the bad thing is i'm only starting to work next
week and i'll be going to Bangkok from 20th december
to the 23rd december, and that leaves me only afew
days to work before school starts. Hopefully that'll be enough! =/

I haven't really pack my books and
they're still occupying my whole cupboard.
I'll have to clear it soon to make way for new books i suppose.
I'm just so lazy to do it.

For the times i'm at home, i'll be either watching
korean dramas or Heroes.
Heroes is loading so slowly that i decided to boycott it
for like some other movies or like prisonbreak.

Have been catching up quite abit with suikim & yuexi.
Dates with them are always so so enjoyable and nice and sweet &
whatever words i can use to express that it's lovely.
Went to vivo city and meet up with my 2
lovely ladies. We walked around in search of Yuexi's white dress.
Lunch @ Marche, and Movie at PS.
Me and yuexi caught the movie The Kingdom.
I thought the movie was pretty good,
but throughout the movie the camera was like shaking
so i felt abit queasy and bad. That's the first
time i felt like that during a movie. Well,
but all was good when i came out from the theatre.

Posting was out yesterday and it's SAJC for me.
I'm happy because that's my first choice.
I was really hoping that I'll get into SA because i barely
met the criteria. I don't know if i'll stay in SA during
JAE but that mostly will depend on my O level results.
Okay that's about it for me today. Daddy is coming
back tonight and my family is going to pick him up at the
airport and have supper together, to celebrate the result
of my posting to SAJC.

okay, favourite 132 meepok for lunch now.
Toodles!

2007-07-24T21:23:00.000+08:00

It's been a while. HAH.
Anyway i had napfa 5 stations last week!
Did pretty okay, i mean like i was
satisfied with the results except for
standing broad jump,
I seriously can't jump! GGAHHHH.
okay here are my napfa results

sit ups : 33
sit and reach : 52
shuttle run : 10.8
incline pull ups : 29
Standing broad jump : 179cm! AHHHH

I tried jumping again today but it
was still 179! it just won't work.

Okay, i'm just really satisfied that i finally
got an A for my geography test!
GRINNNS.
That's like my long awaited A.
Malay composition test tomorrow, hopefully
i'll do well.
Physics test on thurday, really hope i
won't screw it up, started studying
like last week!

48 DAYS TO PRELIM! or is it 47? oops

2007-07-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

Nanyang primary funfair yesterday.
Brought my sister there and hang around.
Met sk, yx, jh & shermaine.
Saw some familar faces too!
Like Zhenning, allison..and many more lah!
okay, the weather was so unbearable!
yx and i left for orchard for lunch,
& then i went straight home.

I attended the National Stadium Closing Ceremony
yesterday. It was pretty sad that was the last time i'll
be walking into the National Stadium.
Soccer match between Singapore & Malaysia's
ex internationals.
& Singapore vs Australia.
We lost 3-0 in our last match to Australia in the national
stadium! Quite sad, but quite a good
game though. Singapore players
were dominating the ball until HARRY KEWELL
came out la. HAH. yup.
After that was the closing ceremony, with
like very little fireworks.

After we left the stadium, we went to the mrt
& took to kembangan. Mummy came to fetch us to
HONG KONG CAFE! I ordered mango king! :D :D :D
GRINNS-
I have been craving for it for 1293478656487 yrs.
YAY, yesterday was a happy day.

Today is a study day, so is tomorrow!
toodles!

2007-06-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

Well hello,
Camp ended last friday.
And yup, three and a half years of st john
life has just ended. It really feels weird that
i'm not part of the st john family anymore.
i mea i don't belong to the ahs corp.
But just seniors. Like i don't get to say
Sqd ____ jiayou!
like it's sqd5`08 now. HAH.

Well, i know this past year being NCOs
wasnt easy for 407, but at least we have
pulled through. YEAHHH BABY.

Anyway, i know i haven't really been the
Sqd 2 ic that the sqd 2s imagine me to be.
I mean, all i can say is i'm sorry, but i
really have to do my job.
Honestly, sqd 2`07, you guys are
a bunch of bubbly kids close to my heart.
It's difficult to say how much you mean,
but in case you all think that i detest you,
i don't. And certainly, i believe that i
didn't give you all much good memories in
your sqd 2 life.
BUT well, it's just a period you guys
have to go through, and i hope one day
my dearies will understand why we
did certain things.
For now, i wish sqd 3`08 all the best
for the coming year! WHOOO.

And of course the NCOs to endure
through the coming year!

And Sqd 2`08 to have as much fun
as possible!

St john Annual camp 2007 is something
i'll never forget. i guess. Well, not just the
camp, but the whole st john thing. HAH.

homework time! :(

2007-06-10T14:34:00.000+08:00

AHH, it's like almost halfway through the JUNE holidays.
It's been pretty alright for me i guess.
I've got occasional shopping trips with my family,
Studying sessions with friends,
Dining out with my family once a week.
What more can i ask for?

Well, i just felt like i'm very detached from
my friends. Like i haven't been contacting them,
partly because they're having camps &all.

I've been spending like most of the time
alone these 3days. Been revising work & stuff.
yupp. So i guess i'm left with 2 weeks
to study. Before the new semester starts!

I've been sleeping late these days,
so i guess i have to sleep
early to correct my sleeping cycle.

My friend, it ain't easy.
It's not just you who is giving in.

2007-05-12T22:43:00.000+08:00

Ah. Exams are more than halfway through now.
I feel super shag la. It's really tiring.
Well i screwed up bothe my maths.
If i get an F9 for Add maths,
that will be not too bad already. I just
don't hope to get UNGRADED.
HUR. Exams are not
TOO BAD except the add math paper.
I totally screwed it up due to
lack of practice. Sigh.
E math paper two is on monday! So
i'll practise more i guess.
yeap. i'm so burned out already.
Shall go sleep now. (:

2007-05-06T21:52:00.000+08:00

You're a falling star
You're the getaway car
You're the line in the sand
When I go to far
You're the swimming pool
On an august day
And you're the perfect thing to say

And you play it coy but it's kinda cute
Oh when you smile at me you know exactly what you do
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true
Cause you can see it when I look at you

And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you
It's you
You make me sing
You're every line
You're every word
You're everything

You're a carousel
You're a wishing well
And you light me up
When you ring my bell
You're a mystery
You're from outer space
You're every minute of my every day

And I can't believe that I'm your man
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can

Whatever comes our way
We'll see it through
And you know that's what our love can do

And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you
It's you
You make me sing
You're every line
You're every word
You're everything

And so la la la la
So la la la la

And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you
It's you
You make me sing
You're every line
You're every word
You're everything

You're every song
And I sing along
Cause you're my everything

Yeah, yeah

So la la la la
So la la la la

2007-04-15T19:33:00.000+08:00

Well, a not so great day today.
I mean it's just plain boring.
Just tuition, homework & studying.

Anyway, My brother is in NS now.
In tekong basic military school 1 to be exact.
So is tingzhang & ben.
Thats for people i know la.

It's kinda weird that i'm saying this.
I miss my brother!
He had become awfully nice in these 2 years.

& i really felt brotherly love!
mann.. so AWWWW right.

After he comes out from national service,
we ain't gonna spend much time
together already :(
He might be going overseas to study,
and i'll be going to university then
too. yeahh.

Anyway people say my bro & I look like twins!

Do we ? :D

OH here are some pre-zone comp pictures!

LOVELY BABES!

NC doing drill after tying their hair!

:D

2007-04-13T21:09:00.000+08:00

YAY, the weekend is here! Like finally.
Although there is like only 1 test this week,
i feel really tired every night. Zzz
Mid years are coming so soon!
& i'm just afraid
I don't have enough time to study.
I've started revision
like more than a week ago though.

CCA today, nothing much except even more more
more disappointment, not exactly
the things i hope to see. SIGH.

Sigh, somehow the feeling of
being inferior is back again. It just hits me
again & again. Again, i brought it
upon myself, like i always do.
The way i take other people's words.
I'm like living my old life again, doesn't
really feel good.
but who cares, HAH.
Right, enough complaints. i shall go do
some light studying and go to
sleeeeep. No motivation. EEEEEEEEE.
but it's okay, i'll motivate myself.
i've learnt how to! =/
I wanna go VJC!

21 more days to midyr! :(

2007-04-09T22:09:00.000+08:00

Zone competition is finally over!
What can i say?
I'm really proud of my girls, NC`07.
You girls put in alot of effort,
especially
in this last 3plus months.
I appreciate you girls for trying so hard,
making me feel i've
done my job.

It feels really warm to be able
to train a team
who is ever willing to learn &try.

You girls are the OVERALL CHAMPION!
be proud girls, you deserve it.
NC's determination could be seen through
the drills that you all
do during training. So much effort put in
to train, it finally paid off.
WELL DONE.

But yes, this is just another start!
girls. work hard for Nationals & do
us proud.

NC`07 ROCK ON! LOVES <3

2007-04-03T19:27:00.000+08:00

oh yeah, i won't deny that i'm freaking pissed with _________.
she doesn't understand a single bit what
we're doing. Why must everything go your way?
Can't you just spare that few
minutes to listen to what we've got to say?
i mean what's wrong with you?
What makes you think you're always right?
I know you're the ___________.
But so what, does this give you the right to
scold as you like it?

Even other ______ don't do it.
I know you tell us not to compare, but you
are really too extreme.

I know first impressions are important.
Our first impression was bad, maybe, but why do this
to us ? Why you never seem to change
your perspective towards us?
Why don't you give second chances?

You tell us that the _______ m_______t is
changing & you tell us that
we must learn to accept changes.
But what about you ?
You're not changing @ all. You
stick to your old methods like many many years ago.
So stop contradicting yourself _________.

You only look at our mistakes & you
don't give a damn about what we have done well.
You scold us, tell us how disappointed you are with us & all.
Do you know how much we're trying ?
Everything just becomes negative when you see it.
What do the ______ teach you man, only to look
at your _________ mistakes and keep scolding them for things
they have done wrong? & not even ONCE praising anyone.
Why are you doing this to us? By looking
only at the negative side, i really think you have
FAILED as a _________.
& i'm serious about this.

I know we're a ___________ with lots of problems.
We're trying really hard. Take a look
at the efforts we've put in.
PLEASE, TAKE A LOOK. Stop scolding the
people who are innocent
you _______.

After what we've gone through,
I really can't wait for ___________.
I know you can't wait too.
Can't wait to see us _________.
yes. we'll both be happy then.
I'LL WAIT.

2007-04-01T19:40:00.000+08:00

I had a nice weekend again!
that's why i totally love weekends!

Yesterday was flag day.
It was so tiring luh, but i had a motivation! :D
Came home @ around 2plus then went
to the temple for qing ming jie.
Yup, spent the rest of my saturday
studying. Each session for 45 mins & 10mins rest.
It's pretty good. heh, considering my
cocentration span is about 40 minutes &
i can't concentrate after 40 mins.
heh. yeah.

Woke up @9 & went for tuition.
Did revision for Add math. Log & quadratics.
yeahhhs. Came home, studied again
& went to Aston's for dinner!!
good food luh! @ a cheap price.
I'm a happy girl (:

Well, alright gotta go study!

GIRLFRIEND
Hey, hey, you, you
I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you
I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you
I know that you like me
No way, no way No, it's not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you
I want to be your girlfriend

You're so fine I want you mine you're so delicious
I think about you all the time you're so addictive
Don't you know what I can do to make you feel alright

Don't pretend I think you know I'm damn precious
And hell yeah, I'm the mother _______ princess
I can tell you like me too and you know I'm right

She's like so whatever
You could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about

Hey, hey, you, you
I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you
I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you
I know that you like me
No way, no way No, it's not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you
I want to be your girlfriend

I can see the way, I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time again and again

So come over here and tell me what I wanna hear
Better, yet, make your girlfriend disappear
I don't wanna hear you say her name ever again

Because.
She's like so whatever
And she could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about

Hey, hey, you, you
I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way
I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you
I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you
I know that you like me
No way, no way
No, it's not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you
I want to be your girlfriend

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better
There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in
She's so stupid, what the hell were you thinking?

(Uh)In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better
There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in
She's so stupid, what the hell were you thinking?

Hey, hey, you, you
I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way
I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you
I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you
I know that you like me
No way, no way
No, it's not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you
I want to be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you
I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way
I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you
I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you
I know that you like me
No way, no way
No, it's not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you
I want to be your girlfriend

Hey, hey!

2007-03-26T22:28:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i really feel thankful
that i still have friends who are willing to listen.

Thanks glenn & sher. i love you guys, for
being there.

2007-03-24T22:58:00.000+08:00

Woot, i woke up @like 9plus today!
it's the latest that i woke up since the march holidays.
I woke up @8am or earlier everyday in the March holidays!
And i've been sleeping past twelve, nearly1am for
the past week. I' m lack of sleep.
I NEED MY SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!
I can see my eye bags getting everyday.
so much homework! so little time :[
I'm know there's no use whining & grumbling about
how much homework we have. sighs.

At least i stepped out of my house today :D
Mummy was craving for KFC in the afternoon so
she brought us to KFC for lunch. yeapp.
& i had my favourite ice cream after that! :D
i was so contented already lah.
Usually saturdays and sundays are just staying@ home!
plus tuition of course.
yeahhh.

Studied quite abit & then had dinner.
Daddy decided to take us out for supper! (:
coffee club. It's been 3048650673035578472938 yrs
since i went there.

So yeah, i pretty much enjoyed my day.
Except... Oh well.
-sighs.

Written in the stars by Westlife.

Stay with me
Don't fall asleep too soon
The angels can wait, for a moment
Come real close
Forget the world outside
Tonight we're alone
It’s finally you and I

It wasn’t meant to feel like this
Not without you

Cause when I look at my life
How the pieces fall into place
It just wouldn’t rhyme
Without you
When I see how my path
Seemed to end up before your face
The state of my heart
The place where we are
Was Written in the stars

Don’t be afraid
I´ll be right by your side
Through the laughter and pain
Together we’re about to fly

I wasn’t meant to love like this
Not without you

Cause when I look at my life
How the pieces fall into place
It just wouldn’t rhyme
Without you
When I see how my path
Seemed to end up before your face
The state of my heart
The place where we are
Was written in the stars

We made a few mistakes, yeah
Like sometimes we do
Been through lot of hard days
But I made it back to you

Cause when I look at my life
How the pieces fall into place
It just wouldn’t rhyme
Without you
And when I see how my path
Seemed to end up before your face
The state of my heart
The place where we are
Was written in the stars

Cause when I look at my life
How the pieces fall into place
It just wouldn’t rhyme
Without you
And when I see how my path
Seem to end up before your face
The state of my heart
The place where we are
Was written in the stars

The state of my heart
The place where we are
Was written in the stars

i teared when i heard this song
like when i look @my life.
and at this moment it feels as if
it's gonna fall apart.
This week has been a difficult week.
really difficult one.
I know disappointments are unavoidable,
& i try my best to accept them.

-sighs. You can't say i'm not trying my best.

2007-03-13T18:24:00.000+08:00

OHwell, it's finally the march holidays!
Why is it called holidays when we have more homework
than usual! especially for sec4s, march holidays
are for us to revise our work, and catch up in our studies!
not doing some weird magazine! Maths homework is
definitely useful i would say.

Ah anyway i haven't been blogging lately. heh.
I didn't do well for my CA1 despite it was suppose
to be like the easiest to score! How disappointing!
but yeah, i can't give up, my main goal is the Os.

Zone comp is postponed from 24march to 7 april!
it's a good thing for my dearest NC.
It really feels warm to see them trying to work hard,
and keeping their spirits up! yeahhh.
KEEP IT UP GIRLS! continue to fight for champion!
I'll always support this bunch of bubbly girls! (:

Alright, homework time! :(

2007-02-21T21:06:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
AH, the chinese new year has been really
pleasant for me! holidays! :D
Well, nothing special this year, just
kinda quiet & nice.
This chinese new year holidays
definitely recharged me for
the more challenges i'm gonna face.

Although i've had many days of
holidays, today is wednesday, & i'm looking
forward to the weekends still! they're
really something i can look forward to! :D

Chinese new year is over now, i mean
like the official public holidays. This means
that midyrs are gonna be here already.
I REALLY GOTTA BUCK UP!
study study study...

YES, i finally met up with my primary school
BESTIES! YUEXI & SUIKIM. Although it was
just a short meeting, i guess we catch up on each
other quite abit! Thanks for the cosmetic box,
it was really lovely! :D we'll meet up soon again
alright! LOVE YOU BABES! (:

OH OH OH,
& MATT LONG IS SOOO HOT!!

Agree with me now! HAHA =/

2007-02-10T23:19:00.000+08:00

Ah, i haven't update for almost 2 weeks.
It's been another long & tiring week full of tests,
training & other stuff. Well, i would count myself
lucky that i don't have as many tests
as other classes do. & yes, i'm down for geography
remedial. I'm not really happy about
it because my teacher thinks that i didn't study
for the test, that was why she put me down
for remedial. SIGH.

Had CCA on friday, it was the HP opening.
We tried something different, we had steamboat.
So much more work for us to do.
But sadly it wasn't much appreciated.

Right, anyway i got my Chinese O level results.
I was really upset when i got my
results. I was disappointed because i felt that i
could have done better. But oh well, i should
just get over it & strive harder for
my O levels this year.

Secondary four life is so hectic,
even 1 minute means alot. I've been busy
studying, doing homework, meeting people's expectation,
controlling my own emotions, sorting out conflicts,
to a point i'm begining to feel really empty in there.
Like i'm so tired trying to please
my loved ones without them knowing how i'm
feeling. & the truth can't be told
beacuse it'll just spoil every single thing.
Things haven't been going smoothly
for me. & i definitely hope for a better
tomorrow. That's enough for me.
really.

2007-01-28T18:19:00.000+08:00

Around The Corner Of Your Eye

I'll be waiting just around the corner of your eye

If you knew how many nights
I've been sitting by your bed
Running fingers through your hair
While you're asleep
Every time I call your name
Or softly whisper in your ear
You turn around to look for me
And no one's there

Wherever you are
Wherever you go
I'll be around
I'll be around just want you to know

If you're lost without me
Wondering where I might be
I'll be waiting just around the corner of your eye
Like an angel watching
Meet me when you're dreaming
I'll be waiting just around the corner of your eye

I could be your pot of gold
Everything you're wishing for
Do you really wanna find the rainbow's end
Let me know and I'll come true
I will give my all to you
Don't let anybody take your dreams away

There's a song playing
In every heart beating
In a key that unlocks every door
There's a time for knowing
What's behind the curtain
And it's all you're wishing for

________________________

This song really reminds me alot about my primary school days.
HAH. i used to love this song.
I miss my primary school days. =/
less freedom, but less stress & less problems too!
lol. but anyway, we're all learning & growing
up together! (:

Went to the semifinals yesteday.
It was really exciting @ the national stadium.
All the singaporeans kept cheering. And none stop.
So i didn't stop too. =/
However the traffic was really bad after the game.
Predicted it, but not much choice for us also.
Took a direct chartered bus to bedok
interchange, where we got stuck
in Kallang for more than 40 minutes!
Got home around half past midnight!

It was my first time watching a LIVE football match.
& this WON'T be the last time.
I'll go when i have the chance.
I hope i'll be able to get tickets for the finals!
CHIONG! hah =/
Getting together with friends to watch soccer
matches are really nice i suppose!
That's if my friends enjoy the game as well la.
But it's pretty sad not many
of my girlfriends like that game :(

Alrightt, geography test tomorrow.
STUDY! :D :D :D

2007-01-26T22:59:00.000+08:00

YAY, tomorrow is saturday!
Well, i treasure weekends alot alot now.
I feel like its the only time i can
take a break & all.
The weekdays are like we're always at war,
preparing for tests every single day.
It's kinda sad, really.
But yeah, the weekend's here!
Though i have TONS & TONS of work to do,
I'm still excited about the weekend :D

Urgh, it's getting really annoying if you keep doing this.
It's not the first time, neither is it the tenth.
It's just too many times you've done this that i can't even count them.
Every time when people talk to you about your mistakes,
you always seem so sincere and that you wanna
change and all. But to my disappointment, two minutes later
you commit the same thing again. Sometimes i really
wonder is it so hard to control your emotions? Yes, i know
it isn't easy. And i admit there were times where i
threw my temper also. But I do apologise to the people whom i've
snapped at. and i really take note of my actions the next time & REALLY
refrain from commiting the same mistakes hurting the people
around me.
There are people that you know who will always
stay beside you no matter what you do to them. But everyone has
a limit, a limit where one day they might just
give up on you. Seriously, i don't know whats got into
you lately. It really saddens me to see you like
this. Doing something which hurts people but you
don't seem to know you're wrong :(
I really wanna help you, but i'm just afraid that the more
i wanna help, the more conflicts i'll have with
you. i'm really feeling confused about
what to do.
Give me a break, friend.

2007-01-23T20:31:00.000+08:00

It has been really busy @ school.
& yeah, i'm really glad i'm still taking my third language.
This is the the start of my fourth year
going to Bishan on every Monday & Wednesday.
I'm determined to secure an A1
for my Os for third language. Hopefully all
the time spent on road going to bishan
& going home from there
won't go to a waste! (:
& yes, i enjoy going third language
beacuse of my dearest soohiang & liming
cause they just make me feel
that they're always there!
OH and i realised, SOO SOO, you were
the first person i met in AHS!
Till now, our friendship is still going pretty well!
All the best to you love! (:

Tests are coming in already.
& sad to say i have an amaths chapter
that i can't catch up with.
So i just gotta wait till tuition before clarifying
all my doubts.

Well, i've offically taken over NC with crystal.
Just gotta do what i have to do.
I'll love NC like my own (:
HAHA, sounds as if i've adopted them.
Seriously, i believe in all of you.
jiayou! (:

Sometimes its really sad to see how your
"friends" treat you.
Thanks for letting me be the last to know.
It hurts to say that sometimes
all that hardwork to maintain the friendship
comes to a BIG FAT ZERO.
I really feel upset.
& maybe everything is just so superficial, just like a piece of plastic.
To you, it may not be any of a big deal.
But perhaps to someone else, it means alot.
So i guess, i shall just urge people to think about your
actions before doing anything.
Think if your actions are gonna hurt any of your friends,
or family members or anyone close to your heart.
When things happen, do not try to push the blame to someone else.
It really does reflect badly on you.
Well, i guess the only way is to forgive & forget.
Then i shall do that, cause that's the key to being happy.
I wouldn't wanna brood over these things.
Ah, you're forgiven.
even if you don't know that it was you.

Alright, gotta study already. (:

2007-01-10T22:28:00.000+08:00

School already started for one week,
I still can't get used to being called Secondary FOURS.
HAHA.

Library duty yesterday was BORING.
we had to do 30 hours. We have done 3hrs.
27 more to go! :(
I wanna study study study!

mmm, mock competition's coming.
good luck to all (:

just disappoint me every single time.
treat me like i haven't always been here.
maybe that's what i was all along.
i guess it's just a mistake that i didn't realise.

2007-01-05T20:56:00.000+08:00

I just don't see the reason why.
I put my heart in to doing my job,
but time after time,
i get so disappointed.
I don't know what your aim is by doing
all what you do. Is it protesting ?
I don't know if you all aim to
destroy me or something. HUR.
I have to do my job no matter how much
you hate me. I really hope
you will come to your senses soon.
I just want the best for all of
you. I guess all of us just want to see you
all do your best & to enjoy.

thanks for all the disappointment. my toddlers

2007-01-05T18:52:00.000+08:00

Ah. i haven't been blogging for awhile now.

New year's eve. Well, i spent the whole morning & afternoon at
home completing my homework :[
And went to granny's house for new year dinner.
Helped out in the kitchen alittle (:
HEH. Slacked a little & then went with cousins
for supper near my house. Celebrated
th new year there ! (:
Oh well, not exactly celebrating but just
wishing each other happy new year.
Well, it's a different way of celebrating new year
for me considering i spent most of my
past new years at home either on the bed or
on the computer. HEH :]

New year's day New year's day was pretty boring too.
HAH. Spent the day doing my homework again.
Then after that daddy decided to
take all of us to Hotel Rendezvous for nasi padang.
Ate quite alot =/ cause it was really nice!
Besides the fact that the sotong
was SUPER SPICY. I loved it yet i hate it.
To eat one piece of it,
I had to drink like half a cup of water =/

Yes i know, i can't take spicy food.
Most spicy food are WAY TOOOOOO SPICY for me ;(
I shall learn to eat spicy food some day (:
After dinner, mummy took me to parkway
to buy heels for chinese new year.
But i couldn't find a pair that fits me.
It's either too big or too small :[
I shall continue to search for heels to
wear on chinese new year! :D :D

Parkway closed at 10pm, daddy picked us up
& went home. Packed my bag and slept . (:

First day of school
First day of school was alright. Mrs Jain was our form teacher.
Had 3 hours of talk in the hall by teachers & principal, which made our butts
burn. Returned to class & had 2and a half hours of
Form teacher interaction. & we did target setting.
Aiming for eleven points for Mid year!
& den went for meeting and then third lang @bishan.
Classroom on the 4th floor!
Cikgu Norizan says she'll teach in MALAY.
& yeah, we're suppose to understand
cause we're already SEC 4s.
HAH.

4jan07
Second day of school was fine. Started school @8.50!
So i met up with crystal & wong
for breakfast @simpang. HEH. first time in my
life we actually got to meet for breakfast.
But i believe it might be the first & the last time :(
Lesson ended @2.25, when for meeting
& then training. After coming home i was like
super drained out. Finished up my geog.
& turned in cause i was really
sick. Headache, flu & was feeling bloated.
UHHH.

TODAY
I didn't go to school today, couldn't drag myself out
of bed. The headache was killing my head. =/
So mummy says i stay home to rest.
Cause i didn't really sleep the past 2 nights.
Woke up like 5 times throughout the 6 hour sleep i had.

Went to see doctor @ about 10am. Doctor gave
me painkillers and some medcine
for my stomach. Ate medicine and slept. HEH.
As usual, i woke up & continued doing my
homework. & yeah, i'm feeling much
much better today (:

Thanks to those who cared. LOVES.

2006-12-29T21:49:00.000+08:00

OKAY! I'm finally back from spain & portugal.
I won't type everything about my trip here.
Cause probably no one will
be interested to read it.
yeah.

After surviving the 15 hour flight,
It was a new day at Barcelona.
We went for sevral city tours in the cities
& went shopping of course! heh.
Highlights of barcelona was that we went to visit
the Barcelona FC stadium.
It was awesome la. The stadium was like
super super huge. We toured around the stadium.
& took many pictures! :D
Too bad we weren't allowed into the player's
changing room ;(. We were only allowed to
go into the visitor team's
changing room.
RAHH.

The next city we went to was Madrid. The capital
of SPAIN. i think.
heh. Shopping was fab there. Lots of shops.
Again, the highlight of Madrid was
visiting the Real Madrid stadium!
Oh well. We wanted to catch one of the matches at night
but the tickets were sold out.
From outside the stadium we could hear all the
cheerings! ARGH. We were so close la.
During that match, real madrid lost 0-3 to some
other team which i can't remember.
Security was pretty tight there & we were not even
allowed to go in to take pictures.
But one of the security guards was nice enough to
run in to take photos for us. HEH.

Next few days we went to TOLEDO,
CORDOBA. GRANADA, GIBRALTAR, SEVILLE
& finally to LISBON which is in
PORTUGAL.
@ lisbon, we went to the Benefica stadium too.
heh. Oh well, there's just too much to
type in here about my trip.

I just felt that the trip this year
was really great.
Great people in the tour group.
A pity we didn't managed
to take a group photo.
The people were really fun to be with &
i made new friends in this trip too.
Oh well, i really wish i didn't
have to come
back to reality. It was so nice there.
Just like a paradise, where we don't have
to worry about anything. But just enjoy& have
fun. The people we were with made the trip
a PLUS PLUS. Or many many PLUSES.
Yeap. It WAS TOTALLY AWESOME! :D :D

I'll upload the pictures soon! (:

2006-12-17T18:40:00.000+08:00

Just another few hours & i'll be leaving for spain!
going to the airport in app 2.5 hours time.
So i'll be spending christmas overseas
again. HAH.
In european countries, on christmas day itself,
all shops are closed & they're @home celecbrating.
So it's pretty sad cause i'll
be spending christmas on the coach.

I'll be going there for 12 days.
So i'll be back on the 28th dec. yeah.
I'll miss YOU, YOU, YOU & YOU.

So take care everyone!
Wish all of you Merry Christmas in advance! (:

i just.. wanted to talk.

2006-12-12T21:04:00.000+08:00

5 days to spain!
:D :D :D :D :D

2006-12-11T14:44:00.000+08:00

YOh i'm so in love with this song right
now. (:

2006-12-11T14:33:00.000+08:00

THE WAY YOU LOOK AT ME by Christian Bautista (:

No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes see everything
Without a single word

Cause there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows
You're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothin'
in this world I can't be
I never know what you see but there's
somethin' in the way you look at me

If I could freeze a moment in my mind
be the second that you
Touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock
Make time stand still
Cause baby this is just the way
I always wanna feel

I don't know how or why
I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens every time

The way you look at me

2006-12-09T14:32:00.000+08:00

Went for dental appointment today.
uhh, got scolded by the dentist for not wearing
retainers 24/7 again. urghh.
Dental was @ orchard.
So like i woke up at 8 plus & my mum
told me i had a dental appointment that i wasn't
aware of, & i actually thought i could
sleep till 10am!
too bad for me luhh.
After that took bus 36 with mummy
to parkway to pick my sister from tuition, as well as
to have lunch. yeah.
Well, there was a sale @ WANKO.
GRINNS. (:
Mummy bought a coat for me &
2 long sleeve tops so that we can share (:
TEEHEES.
I think the black coat is really pretty ! :D
After that took bus 15 & went home.
yup. My bro's gonna go hong kong with his friends
tomorrow! We're gonna send him off
at the airport @4.00am
tomorrow. heh.

Some of my dear squad mates are in the %@!^*&
ANCO camp now. Know they're suffering
in there now :(
Not physically, but mentally.
Tolerating all the unreasonable scoldings.
eeww. 2 more days my dear
Squad mates! 2 more days & it'll all
be OVER! (:

I just realised my flight to spain is 16hrs.
It is freakin long la!
Furthermore we will hafta take a 13 hour
flight from s'pore & stop over
@amsterdam (wtv the spelling is),
then take another 3hour flight from there to some
city in spain. OH MY,
& in both flights, there are no entertainment
system @ all. So i gotta find some ways
to entertain myself for 13 + 3 freaking hours.
RWARRR. I still prefer Singapore airlines.
HUR.

Despite the super long flight,
i'm still looking forward to go to spain & portugal!
TEEHEES. 8 more days! (:

2006-12-06T11:29:00.000+08:00

Come with me
Stay the night
You say the words but boy it don't feel right
What do you expect me to say
You take my hand and you say you've changed
But boy you know your begging don't fool me because to you it's just a game

So let me on down 'cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone and you know

It's just too little too late
A little too wrong and I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say
You know it's just a little too late
You say you dream of my face but you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real it doesn't matter anyway
You know it's just too little too late

Yeah yeah
It's just too little too late
Mmm

I was young and in love
I gave you everything but it wasn't enough and now you wanna communicate
Go find someone else
In letting you go
I'm loving myself
You gotta problem but don't come asking me for help 'cause you know

It's just too little too late
A little too wrong and I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say
You know it's just a little too late
You say you dream of my face but you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real it doesn't matter anyway
You know it's just too little too late

I can love with all of my heart baby
I know I have so much to give
With a player like you
I don't have a prayer
That's no way to live

Oh no
Mmm no
It's just too little too late
Yeah

It's just too little too late
A little too wrong and I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say
You know it's just a little too late
You say you dream of my face but you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real it doesn't matter anyway
You know it's just too little too late

Oh I can't wait No no ooh

It's just too little too late
A little too wrong and I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say
You know it's just a little too late
You say you dream of my face but you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real it doesn't matter anyway
You know it's just too little too late

2006-12-06T11:20:00.000+08:00

Squad chalet is over already :(
On the first day, wong, shiya & i went to
escape. heh. Afew rides were down for maintainence la.
So like there wasn't much to play as well.
At night we had bbq. yup.
Invited the NCOs 2006 & seniors over to eat & talk.
It was pretty okay la. But i had to go home
at nine la. eeeeeee.

Second day we went to Kbox at parkway & sang for 5 hours
i think. heh.
It was my first time going to Kbox! heh =/
& the food there cost a bomb. A small bowl of
tidbits cost like $5. I'm
never going there again, unless i'm with my parents. HEH!

I'm gonna stay at home to do
my homework for the rest of the week i suppose.

11 DAYS TO SPAIN! :D

2006-12-01T20:45:00.000+08:00

Had training on wednesday, thursday and today.
yep. Nothing much la. just hope
to see my dear cadets putting in more effort as
mock competition is really coming!

hmm, anyway i just found out that the famous
guy called anson in sec 1 ncc guy is actually
my cousin. HEH.
It was really a shock to me luh.
Not close cousin la. but distant cousin.
Perhaps i see
him once a year or twice or maybe thrice. HEH.
It's kinda weird hearing so much
bad stuff about him, & pretty much feel like
whacking him. And then
find out that he is my COUSIN. heh.
I don't even think he knows he has a cousin
called liting luh -.-
LOLLL. =/

Anyway sqd chalet is coming!
YAYYYYNESS! :D :D
I'm so excited. heh.

& i'm going to spain in 16 days!
WHEEEEE.

& i have loads of undone homework.
BOOOOOOO.

EEYER. so anti-climax :(

heh.

2006-11-28T14:45:00.000+08:00

Gosh. It rained so much yesterday.
I'm glad that it wasn't that bad.
having rained so much, and we still managed
to let the party go on as planned.
It didn't rain heavily but it kept drizzling.
I would say its a job well done for My dearest Squadron
mates. It wasn't the perfect party, but
i still think in the team work area,
YOU GUYS DID A GREAT JOB! REALLY :D :D
i wouldn't have done it without
you guys.
I wanna say that i'm really sorry too, for
snapping at you guys.
i really didn't mean to & you guys know
that i'm pretty hot-tempered. Thanks for tolerating
my nonsense. Please don't take what i said to heart alright.
Thanks to NCC for being so nice to let us use the
NEW PARADE SQUARE.
Thanks to NCC for letting us use the canteen tables.
& sat on the ground to eat instead.
Thanks to EDC for using lesser canteen tables.
Thank you YIYEE, SHAWN, BRYAN & MEIXUAN for
helping us to do the PA.
:D :D

Well.
It's kinda sad to see the Sec4s leave.
Especially when their sqd is the sqd which has been with
us for the longest time. Guess we've grown under
their guidance. Many things happened
in our SQD THREE life.
But we never once hated you people.
Even if some of us did, we truly regretted it.
Thanks for all the wonderful
memories
you have given us. Everything you guys
have done is greatly appreciated.
I guess things i wanna
say to you guys is so much more than what
i can type here.
Just hope you guys will come back often to see us!
All the best NCOs 2006!
We'll really miss you guys :( :(

2006-11-24T12:57:00.000+08:00

Perhaps some things weren't meant to be.
I feel like i've always tried
to please the people around me, not
bootlicking them, but trying to make them happy.
I don't know if they themselves know it.
Perhaps they're getting bored
or something.
Maybe to them i am just somebody who is trying
to bootlick them just to get some advantage out of them.
I just feel.. like an idiot.
I guess i shall just take this time to really think
through about the decisions i've made.

& yes i'm wallowing in self-pity.
But so what? who cares. UHH.

perhaps i'm better off alone..

2006-11-21T21:40:00.000+08:00

Oh finally, exams are finally over.
Like FINALLY. It turned out that chemistry re-exam paper
was exactly the same as the end of year paper.
HAH.
Oh wells, they didn't even bother changing the
cover page to Secondary three chemistry RE-EXAM.
HURHUR. Like it's totally the same.
Glad it turned out this way.
& luckily i went to revise my end of years.
PHEW.
What can i say, holidays are BORING.
It doesn't even feel like
holidays. Lots of homework piling up on my table.
Just like a MOUNTAIN. :( EEWW.
Yes, i'm gonna start doing it tomorrow. (:

2006-11-19T21:12:00.000+08:00

CHEMISTRY RE-EXAM TOMORROW!
i'm so not confident of it. SIGH.
URGH. I'm feeling really frustrated now :(
I feel like a FOOL.
Come on, someone tell me what's wrong!
SIGH. SIGH. SIGH.

Tell me if you care.

2006-11-16T23:08:00.000+08:00

EMO EMO EMO! : [
ARGH.

I don't know, this feeling just came back to me
SUDDENLY.
Till now, we are still being seen as CMI.
Honestly, i hope NC3`07 will take
their training seriously &
learn ALOT of things through training
this year. It doesn't feel good
to waste one whole year of training, & end up
hating your own instructor.
I know that kind of feeling, people say they
treat us all the same but in fact,
We were already given the death sentence.
Wasn't it obvious?
That kinda feeling seriously SUCKED.
JUST LOOK DOWN ON US LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO.

THANKS FOR ALL THE SACARSM
THANKS FOR ALL THE EFFORT YOU MADE JUST TO PULL DOWN OUR MORALE
THANKS FOR LOOKING DOWN ON US JUST
ONE DAY BEFORE THE BIG DAY.
THANKS FOR ALL THE LIES.
THANKS FOR ALL THE DISCOURAGEMENTS
THANKS FOR TRYING SO LITTLE
THANKS FOR MAKING LIFE HELL

THANKS AH.
THANKS ALOT.
I'M SURE I Y YOU LOTS.
HURHUR.

Lastly, THANKS FOR MAKING ME STRONGER.

2006-11-16T21:12:00.000+08:00

Woke up early & went for training today.
uhh, i couldn't wake up la, i was
practically dragging myself out of the bed.
HEH. Oh well, i have to
put my training aside first, &study my
CHEMISTRY RE-EXAM.
Its kinda scary la, cause i'm so afraid that i won't do
well again :[
I've spent like alot of time on it, & I hope
I didn't concentrate on the wrong topics like the
last time round. heh =/
Oh yes, i went to pay for my locker rental fee already.
My locker is no.9! :D :D
Sigh, there's lots of homework.
I'm gonna start doing after my re-exam.
YES, i know i should have start doing it a long time ago =/
ALRIGHTS,
I shall go mug already. bye world.

I wanna take up ballroom dancing! :D :D

2006-11-10T21:42:00.000+08:00

Competition training has started for sometime now.
There's alot to teach my dear NC3.
And they have loads to learn & memorise.
Training after training, i see them improving.
& i'm really happy about it. I hope NC3 will
keep up th good work and make
more improvement!
KEEP THE TEAM SPIRIT UP!

I would say the road of competition training ain't easy at all.
Like totally. I find it tough.
Often, during this period of time, teams break down,
cry & becomes stronger. You people would ask,
How would i know ?
I've been through it all, and i think my competition
training years might have been as
bad. A negative attitude towards
competition training will only pull your
team's morale down & make your team suffer.
It doesn't help at all!
Only having a positive attitude will be beneficial
to all. Fall & get up. Fail & learn from it.
That's what competition training is about.
Ask yourself, what do you want to achieve, and
how you are going to do it & lastly,
WORK TOWARDS IT!
Well, our future is in your hands people!
I wish all teams all the best in competition training 2006-2007!
( :

__________________________

hmm, two weeks of bridging is over & now
my job is to work hard for my chemistry re-exam!
Lots of homework to do, lots of things to study, major projects &
lots of syllabus to cover for training!
So tiring!
i'll try to cope with it anyway.
On a journey with so much to learn,
to be understanding,
to compromise,
to sacrifice,
to take a step back.
Many many other things.
Nothing's gonna be easy, but we'll
all try to do our best,
won't we? (:

2006-10-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

When i look back at competition training days,
i somehow feel sad, happy, accomplished &
disappointed. It's just mixture of different
feelings. NC4`05 had a really rough start i
must say. Perhaps people would ask how
rough can it be? I guess only we know. I could
still remember how i felt after the first
mock competition. It wasn't remorse for
not working hard enough. It was a different
feeling. I would admit i was filled with hatred
then. But well, i was really lucky
to have afew seniors who were SOOOOO NICE
to me. They listened to all my complaints &
tried to solve the problem. They could have
treated me as some irritating junior trying
to gain some attention. I didn't think there
were any nicer senior than them. I'm really
very very appreciative of the 2 seniors and
i'm never gonna forget you guys, even though
you two have graduated for a period of time. (:
OH wells, i just suddenly have the urge to thank
you two. yeapps. THANK YOU!

2006-10-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

a BIG thank you to
Mandice, Zhiyong, Bixia, Weiyang, Juinhoe
Suikim, Daphne, Shiya, Bernadette, Jacob,
Xuanli, Leonard, Clarice, Wong, Crystal,
Yingmin, Lekping, Khengyong, Rongxuan,
Edmond, Melvin, Andrew, Weiwei, Adeline,
Wangmiao, Jonathan, Yuhan, Shermaine,
Sabrina, Sherman, Kristy, Yuexi,
Xavier, boon kai, Sqd 3s & my dear Sqd 2s.
for all the wishes by smses, presents,
messages & phonecalls! You guys made
my day! :D :D Sorry if i left out
anyone! =/
i love you guys! Mwah (:

2006-10-14T19:16:00.000+08:00

My blog is so dead.
I haven been to my blog since like
September 16. Its almost a month.
Oh wells, exams are over and i'm
absolutely happy & sad. GAHHH.
Although i managed to pass my
additional mathematics paper this time,
afterall its only a PASS. i mean like
borderline pass. Uh ah. It ain't good
enough. I'm determined to mug in the
holidays. I really worked hard for exams,
but i guess it just isn't enough.
Shopping sprees soon my girlfriends! (:

2006-09-16T23:05:00.000+08:00

Don't feel obliged to do anything
you don't want to.

drained.

2006-09-10T11:57:00.000+08:00

Finally, i had a nice saturday. (:
Woke up at 8 and started studying & stuff.
At about 11am, my parents called me and
said they are coming back to fetch me
to buy my new phone. The whole buying
phone thing took like 2 hours plus. The
queueing & paying &all. My mum bought
the same phone as me! hah. We didn't have
to pay for a single cent for the 2 nokia phones
after all the trade-in & stuff. After that i went
home for lunch & continued to study till like
five plus before my dad came back to fetch
me to sicc with my sister for dinner & a movie
after that.
Its been pretty long since i had a nice saturday (:

When the days are rough and an hour feels much longer .

2006-09-06T15:05:00.000+08:00

I'm not happy.
Like seriously i don't feel good these days.
& i don't know what's troubling me.
I guess its a little of everything.

I've been trying to study my ass off
to keep my mind off those silly things.
I used to like weekends & stuff, but
now it is like every other day.

i wanna fly looking in your eyes.

2006-09-03T14:07:00.000+08:00

Well, it was a short week in school this week,
with only three days. Wednesday was the
wheelbarrow thing. Adeline and i did pretty okay
i think. We finished somewhere before the middle.
Then paper 1 on thursday. I think i screwed both
chinese and english up. I didn't think i'll do well.
And friday is a holiday. uhh. This marks the end
of term three. Term four is a really short term,
and with my results, i don't think i can make it.

&i'm going for BGI later.
My squad is marching in the GOH
contingent! yayness. (: haha.

This whole week will be used for studying and
catching up all the school work.
I might be going out to study and stuff.

mugging anyone ?

2006-08-26T22:02:00.000+08:00

eeeee. i failed another math test.
I don't care, i have to pass the one on
Monday! i can't afford to keep failing
all my math tests.

Well, had combine cca with NCC today.
It wasn't all that bad la. That's what i thought.
uh okay, nevermind.
I was the station mistress of station 2 together
with crystal, edmond and elton. heh.
I think all the cadets will love BANANA MILK!
lol. it wasn't really exciting but i had
some good old times with edmond. HAHA.
It reminded me of the times when i was in 2E.
Just screaming and whacking each other,
i won't deny that we were being childish. But
that's part of growing up isn't it ? Heh.

Time is really passing too quickly and sometimes,
i just hope time can just stop for awhile.
JUST FOR AWHILE.
Theres barely a month left till exams.
STOPPPPPPPP! i need to breathe. Thank you.

2006-08-10T10:34:00.000+08:00

2.4 run was on tuesday. I was doing
duty at the finishing point and there
were afew casualties la. most were
fine after resting for a while. yeapps.
After that we had divisional outing!
It was pretty fun luh! heee (:
Then after the outing i went home
to change and left for st john
headquarters for public duty.
I was right la. It wasn't FOP.
i mean like DUH la. It was some
other worship event. yeaps.
Just felt quite outta place there.
Like really la. But the songs
were really nice. Though we had
to stand there for 3 hours continuously,
i think i did enjoy myself there.
It was my first time attending such
and event. I still think the songs are
super nice (:

Yesterday was national day!
gees. A pity i didn't get tickets to
watch the parade at the stadium.
I had always wanted to. heee =/
Well, i could see the fireworks from
my house like always. They were just
so so so preeeetty.

Anyway i have like 3 test on next monday?!
like i have to really study already la.
Exams are coming and i'm sure everyone
can feel the pressure and stuff.

mughard everyone!

2006-08-01T20:10:00.000+08:00

i'm so lazy to update my blog nowadays.
Shall start from sunday. afew of the sqd4`07
people went to West coast park to perform
for a running event. well, there wasn't many
people looking lar. so we were quite relieved.
HAHAH =/ cause we only had ONE proper
dance practise. GAHHH. After that,
we took a long MRT ride from Jurong
back to my house. Adeline came to my house!
hehe. We talked and do the stuff that girls
usually do. =/ then she left my house at 1plus
to meet her friends. I continued to stare at
the Additional maths ten-year series till 4plus. lol.
I mean i did the ten year series lar. LOOK.
I'm a goooood girl alright =/.

Uh well, I went out at 5pm to meet my friends
at city hall and then to Marche for dinner.

We then headed to esplanade for our school's concert.
I liked most of the performances. yeapppps !
It was really good la. Well done performers! (:
All that hard work paid off i guess.
yeapps.

Alright, gotta studyyyy! (:

2006-07-27T18:52:00.000+08:00

It always seems to be my fault anyway.
Let it be then.

So much for doing things for the
sake of doing it. I'm trying already.
but it doesn't seem so positive.
The passion's long gone.
There's no meaning to it anymore.
i'm so tired, so drained, lethargic.

Just leave me alone.

2006-07-24T21:50:00.000+08:00

AH! i had phototaking with
my family yesterday at some studio.
The camera just keeps flashing and
flashing. All of us smiled at the camera
till our mouth became like super numb!
lols. It was fun la, considering the last
time i went to a studio to take pictures
was like 6 years ago ? HAHAH =/

After like 2 hours in the studio,
our whole family went to SICC
for dinner and then we went home.

Before dinner, my cousins and i were
just having some fun taking pictures
as it was the first time all of us were
in formal wear! haha. pictures later!

2006-07-15T21:50:00.000+08:00

well, yesterday was the first official
cca. First CCA as NCOs, and the
feeling sure is different. yeapps.

Went for flag day today.
There were like 4 organisations
at orchard road today and hundreds
of students selling flags flocked the
whole orchard road. I believed many
people were pissed after being approach
by so many people just walking for afew
minutes. IT IS pretty annoying la. I
wouldn't deny. GAHHH =/

Anyway there were people who were
really generous! There was this middle-
aged woman with two teenaged daughters
, I though she would just ignore me or
something when i approached. But
when i approached, this lady donated a
TEN DOLLAR NOTE.
Well, so i suppose LOOKS CAN BE
DISGUISING. hahah. Well, a handful
of them like around 10 or more donated
two dollars. So there ARE nice people
around, but there are some who are
pretty snobbish too. GEES. But anyway
i had a nice time today, although it was
pretty tiring having to repeat the same
line all over and over again, and having
to smile at the people over and over
again even though they scold us for
being everywhere on orchard road,
I still think its a good experience la.
Doing our part for CHARITY :D :D.

After finishing CIP, karen accompanied
me to go and look for my dress for
my family photo-taking. yeapps.
Look around for really long and went
into Heeren's DANIEL YAM. I tried
on many many dresses. Then i called
me parents to come to help me choose.
HEH =/. After staying in that shop for
a long long long long time, I finally
bought a dark red tube dress :D
I think its preeeety (:
My first dress ever!

Okay anyway, i saw the fireworks today
as there was national day preview.
The fireworks were so so so so pretty!
and i hope i can go out on national day
to catch the pretty fireworks somewhere.

Alright, time to study physics! (:

2006-07-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

Nationals are over.
And i guess our results are
really disappointing. It's too
late to say anything now i know.
4th in Nationals. It's pretty bad.
If only we had like more time
and less parental objection.

But anyway, disappointment
can't be avoided la. I still wanna
thank my beloved instructors
JOY XINHUI and PINRU.
They are the ones who put in
so much effort to train us, and
yet we disappointed them, and
let them down.

During the nationals, when they
were announcing the results,
when i saw that we got overall
4th in place, the first thing on
my mind was :
'' how are we gonna face them? ''
The feeling is so so so so bad.
There's no doubt there is still
guilt in me. It's just there for
a reason i guess.

Thanks NC2 for all the memories.
All that sweetness and bitterness
will forever be etched to my heart.(:

Yeah i know i'm not official.
Some people say it doesn't matter.
While some just keep saying
that i'm not official. It just mean that
i have no right to do this and that.
Don't tell me not to care about the
comments. You won't know how it feels
because you are not me.

2006-07-08T09:55:00.000+08:00

OH MY!
tomorrow is national competition.
i seriously can't wait for it to be
over luh. N-comp over will be one
less burden i guess. I'm not pretty
sure about that actually. HAH =/
I'll have to find someway to study
my geography test on monday! ;(

___________________

Well, i have afew things to say to NC2.
hmm, i guess we have come a long way.
Our team was formed at the year end of
2004, when we were still secondary ones
and was childish and innocent =/. And during
that time, i guess that was one of the
toughest period of time for the THEN NC4
which was us. Due to some reasons,
we didn't get to train much and we fell
HARD during the mock competition in 2004.
It was so difficult to stand up again.
But in 2005, though i was on the verge
of giving up, you guys cheered me on,
and i thank you people for that. I guess
some of you people know this. I have never
ever been a willing number one. There was
a period of time where i even feel like
skipping training. But you guys made me
feel important to the team, and that i can't
do that and let all of you and the instructors
down. From there, i picked myself up and
trained as much as we could. In 2006
mock competition, we improved, and
that was when all of us gain abit of confidence.

We went for zone competition together
and we did it again. And now, its the last
race already. NATIONAL COMPETITION.
Apparently we didn't have much training
in the june holidays because of parental
objection as well as many clashing activities.
All now that we can do is to focus.

NC2 is special to me. It brought much pain
, as well as much joy and laughter to me.
It is just different of other teams.
Its because every team is different.
__________________________

To my dear number 2.
YINGMIN.

I know you have many parental objections.
And can't come for training. I try to
understand you. But sometimes when i think
of the number of training left i'm just worried.
And many times i snap at you for not coming.
I'm really sorry for that okay. You are part of
NC2. You are important to the team. Guess
now the only thing to do is to revise as much
as possible yeah. Though the times were hard,
we went through it together, as number one and
two, as PARTNERS. We'll all just give our best
shot for tomorrow okay! We'll do GREAT as
partners! jiayou!

To my Number 3.
CRYSTAL

Since the first day of training, I guess we had many
many many many countless disagreements. But
I guess thats where we get our bond from ? HAHAH.
Seriously i think you're a great number 3. It's
been tough and you were the one who movitvated
me to stand up and continue from where i left it hanging.
The THEN NC4 learned it the hard way i suppose.
As for tomorrow, its the last part of the race
already! Just the best tomorrow. Thanks girl! (:

To my number 4
HUANNNIE

heyy. HUANNIE! It's been tough i know.
Its been great having you as my number 4!
The clearing of dangerous and obstructing
object is a very important step upon
approaching every case. You play a super
important role! Sometimes, we two do
have disagreements as well, and i'm really
glad we have overcome it. You never fail
to joke with us even though you're really
tired. The sound of your laughter never failed
to make me laugh ! HAHAH=/ after that,
we'll have more energy to continue training.
We'll do it for n-comp! YOU and crystal are
gonna do it! ALL THE BEST GIRL! <3

To MANDICE.
Hey mandice, i know you ever felt that
you're not important to the team because you're
just a reserve. But that's not true you ARE important
because YOU ARE part of the team. I could really
see the effort you're putting in when you came
for training. Thanks for supporting us all the way
mandice! You never fail to make us all SMILE.
I know behind the scene you are always cheering
us on and caring for NC2. Take care of your throat alright!
don't worry we'll do our best! <3 <3

And last but not least,
to our NC2 instructors Joy, Xinhui and Pinru.

Hey instructors, i know we're not an easy team
to train. And often, you people have to sit there
and watch us have disagreements and even to
the extend of quarreling. I'm sorry for all that.
I thank you three for showering us with care
and concern. We'll do our best for you and
everyone else. Without you people, we won't
be who we are today. A big thank you to
JOY, XINHUI and PINRU! <3<3<3
__________________

Its like I have so many things to say
about what i feel after going through
so much as a team.
LASTLY, i just love you guys to BITS.
Thanks for giving me such great memories
Thanks for giving me the chance to
go through all these with you people. (:

As for tomorrow, we'll pray hard for all
the teams. NA, NC, AA and AC.
We'll hope for the best!
jiayou jiayou jiayou!

2006-07-04T20:22:00.000+08:00

Today is st john day :D :D
Wore st john uniform the
whole day mann. It was pretty
cool lar. It's the first time we're
standing on the stage. heheh.
Its definitely a different feeling
i guess. I almost fainted on stage
=/ but luckily i managed to
tahan till the other students
left the hall . GEES.

I had training after
school today. GAHH.
Had training in Full uniform.
It wasn't usual. Guess today's
the only time we could do drill
in boots. we have to CHIONG
already! JIAYOU NC2! :D :D

Today's my happy day.

2006-07-02T23:09:00.000+08:00

GEES. I think i posted many many entries
today. HAHAH =/.
Went to celebrate mummy's birthday
today. We went to a restaurant near
National Stadium for some good food.
HEEs (: Well, there was rehearsal for
National day today, so traffic was BAD.
Had to park far away and walk back to
the restaurant.

GAHH. Well, while walking to the
restaurant, I saw many of the people
who were marching in the
contingent in their uniforms! HAHAH.
Pretty exciting lar. It reminded me of
something else too. sigh.
We manage to catch a glimpse of
a small fireworks after a performance
i think. HAHAH. IT was pretty, although
it was just for THAT few seconds.

I wanna go and watch fireworks this year(:
Just somewhere i can see it clear.
AHH. i shall just hope.

Perhaps if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better.

2006-07-02T12:19:00.000+08:00

Some of the pictures i took yesterday at SYF and at Mdm Teo's farewell party (:
I haven't post pictures for a long long time now. =/

AT SYF.

Some of our School's NCC along with other schools NCC Guard of honour at SYF.
Tanjong Katong Secondary Band display.
Sqd 4`07 with Mdm teo (: (:
My Sqd 2`07 toddlers with huan and me! LOVES.
Sqd 2`07 . huannie and me (=
Wong and me.
Sqd 4`07 having fun!
Sqd 4`07 posing. HAHAH =/
Sqd 4`07 with Joy Ma'am
Sqd 4`07 Locked out of MdmTeo's house. LOLS
Me. Mrs Tay's daughter and crystal.
Sabrina. crystal. wong. me. adeline (:
Joyce. Huannie. Kok and me (:

Sqd 3`06 and Sqd 4`06!

We both know
It's better if we just let it go

2006-07-02T00:02:00.000+08:00

I feel like a pig. =/
i slept for 12 hours yesterday
but yet i still felt tired. Just
tireddddd. Anyway i went for
syf today. Went to crystal's
house to meet her den we took
mrt to the stadium. Watched
the contingent march and our
very own school's NCC
guard-of-honour. yeaps.
Wonder when i'll have a chance
to march on such an event.
HEEEE =/.

After watching the
military bands perform, we left
the stadium to go for mdm teo's
farewell party. We took a cab there
and the cab fare was a BOMB.
i could have bought so many other
things with that money :( :(

Upon reaching mdm teo's house
with a hungry stomach, we found
out that there was nothing left to
eat. So we drank some juice and
slacked around, took photos,
and presented mdm teo the
gift from our squad. After that
at around nine plus, we left
mdm teo's house and i went home.
My dad took me for dinner/supper
after that (:

Today is my mummy's birthday(:
Just wished her happy birthday
at 12 midnight :D
My brother, my sister and i gave
mummy a surprise by singing
her a song edited by my brother.
LOL. its was kinda stupid but
i thought it was CUTE. HAHA.
We all shared the cost and bought
a ZARA shirt for mummy. (:
Thanks for everything mum!

Guess i'm gonna go and sleep
soon. its twelve thirty already.
zzzz.

Whenever someone asks me
the question, i just get stabbed
in the heart again.
I don't like this at all :(

trying to find my way.
Its just been a week.
A difficult week, a tiring one.

i wonder...

2006-06-30T18:14:00.000+08:00

Today was sports day.
Well, i did public duty today.
It was the most tiring public
duty i have ever done!
I was like running everywhere.
And i hardly sat down for a break.
Cleaning wounds, treating cramps
and stuff.

And its always the same.
Every year, someone would
be sent to the hospital.
A lower sec basketball guy
got sent to the hospital
because he had a dislocation
i think. Hope he'll be well
soon luh. yeaps.

Went to tampines mall with
crystal clarice shiya huannie and sab
to eat lunch. We went to Seoul garden
for lunch because all of us wanted to go
to a place with lots and lots of food =/
We were all starving after doing public
duty. After eating, most of us felt so
sinful for eating so much, and promised
that we'll shed some pounds.
and YES, i'll watch my BMI. HAHAHA.
Well, i wanted to go and buy some stuff
after eating but i've ran out of time :(
Had to go home at four plus.

YAY. i'm going to SYF with my darling
crystal tomorrow! :D :D
After that we'll probably rush to the
farewell party. yeaps.

By the way, I heard this song
over the radio and i thought
it was kinda nice.
Although it is pretty SAD
luh. =/

Who knew

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
ah huh that's right

I took your words
And I believed
In everything you said to me
yeah huh that's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrong
I know better
Coz you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
oh no no no

I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'For they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
But they knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who Knew

I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrong and
That last kiss I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darlin' who knew

My darlin' my darlin' who knew
My darlin' I miss you
My darlin' who knew
Who knew .

a girl like me. GAHH.

2006-06-29T20:52:00.000+08:00

first week of school is almost over.
and i think my previous post sounds
kinda suicidal =/ HAHAH. i'm pretty
much just tired luh.

Today was a pretty slack day again.
Started off with SEL, followed by
english where i did my presentation.
Geog was boring as usual.
Chinese, where people just
continue to take turns to talk
about the topic which was assigned
to them by the teacher to prepare
for O level oral. EEEKS.

I'm feeling pretty much better i guess?
HAHAH. Actually i don't really know.
tsk tsk. I'm still tryna get use to it.
thanks to the people who made me smile (:

I'm starting to be thankful for everything
i have, and everyone who is beside me.
Perhaps everything just happen for
a reason. GAHH.

I shall get some sleep soon. Haven't
been sleeping well these days.
TATA! (:

2006-06-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

oh wells, school had already reopened.
I have to catch up on my maths now =/
functions and sets. eee! i can't understand
a single bit lar. someone please enlighten
me, if not i'll just have to wait till sunday
when i go for tuition. GAHH.

I'm really feeling really tired.
Like mentally and physically.
I've never felt so tired in my
life before. I feel like someone
is sucking all my energy
away. I just feel like sleeping
and never to open my eyes again.

just tired. I really am.
perhaps someday
perhaps .
perhaps.

2006-06-24T19:08:00.000+08:00

hello blog. Well, i woke up unusually
early today. Like 7am in the morning.
I just couldn't get back to sleep since
4am. I was still tired. Just all pretty
drained out. But i couldn't sleep,
so i got up bathed, and started work.
Did some ten year series, some
chinese my mummy asked me
to do and just do all that i could.
Hopefully i wouldn't have time
think of anything else. I'm still
trying to get used to it.

In the afternoon, i went to st john
HQ for national competition briefing.
This gave me another wake up call
about how soon national competition
is coming. Its on 9th July. It's pretty
scary lar. hahah =/
I'll give my all (:
After that, i came home and went
to parkway with mummy to walk
around. Just to get some air.
yeaps.

Yeah i know.
It's TIME TO MOVE ON! (:
Spending time with my
girlfriends will be fine.
I guess :D :D

I'm gonna stay happy (:

2006-06-22T18:39:00.000+08:00

agradecimentos para tudo(:

I'm starting to eat lots of
chocolates again. =/

I guess promises are meant to be
broken. It really is.

2006-06-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

sigh. It all comes back to the same
thing everytime doesn't it.
I'm pushing myself real hard
for this and it's driving me nuts.
I'm always trying to control my
temper. I don't want to snap
at anyone. And at the end of the
day, all i could do is to cry my
heart out. Just to let it all out.

So many things, so little time.

I don't feel so much anymore.
Say i'm not capable of doing
things. So be it i'm not
at all. Not a single bit.
yeah i'm wallowing in self pity.
i don't care. i don't give a
fcuking damn anymore.

It sucks. really.

2006-06-18T13:18:00.000+08:00

i went out with my besties
SUIKIM & YUEXI
to orchard on last thursday. We've
not met for like 7 months or so.
So we had lots to catch up on each
other. Well, although 7 months passed
by without meeting each other,
I would say our 'mo4 qi4' is still
there (: Thursday was definitely
G-R-E-A-T and super duper
AWESOME! gees (:
Hope we'll get to meet up really
soon!

Okay. One more week of holidays
left. And we have lots of things to do.
Comp training, remedials, meetings
and completing homework. ARGH.
Schedule is like super hectic!
and i'm still facing lots of parental
objection to go for training and stuff.
I can't wait for school to reopen!
But yet on the other hand,
I don't want school holidays to
because of all the things that
will come in after school reopens!
tsk tsk. lol.
I'm just like feeling stupid luh.
cause i'm contradicting myself!
geeeees.

uhh. Oh yeah and i was reading
this blog of a young cancer patient
and i cried while reading it lar.
It teaches us appreciate life and
to live life as if everyday was your
last. I'm really so touched. She was
so so so positive. sigh.
Life's short. really.

2006-06-11T18:43:00.001+08:00

yay. sjab camp is finally over.
OH YEAH OH YEAH!

All the pumpings, sqd 3`06
had endured through.
Our cadet years have just ended
on 10th june 2006.
We will go through this
NCO year together.
It would be tough but we
will pull through the next year.
SQD 4`07!
WE WILL DO IT TOGETHER!

Whereas for my partner luhuan,
we will bring sqd 2`07 to greater
heights! (:
I'm sure we will make it!

Camp was pretty memorable
i guess. For the first time,
I didn't report sick for sjab camp (:
But i was having high fever just
now. gees.
Everything was pretty much
unpredictable in camp.
I think mortigen might
be the only HP group in camp
to have 5 people going for
camp and reduced to four on
the third day. HAHAH. lol.
SQUAD 4`07 jiayou! (:

2006-06-02T22:25:00.000+08:00

yay. i'm back from perth.
it was a really great trip!
made new friends and all.
the whole 6 days i was with
sockling, yingsi, shuhan, phaykey
and adeline. not forgetting victor,
glen and kewei. This group of
people are really really nice!
even though i only got
to know them during this trip.
It was a time well spent i guess.
We got to know the sports class
people better too! they're really
a group of interesting people :D :D

Well, the weather there was really
nice. Like we're always in an
air-conditioned room. The hotel
we stayed in were really nice too.
there was like a kitchen and all
, it certainly felt really homely.
hehehe (:
The first few 3 nights, we stayed
in the goodearth hotel.
My roomates were adeline,
sockling and yingsi. yeapps.
had a great time with them!
As for the next two nights,
We stayed in Orchard Glory Farm.
A really BIG place. Owned by a
Singaporean. cool right?!
hahah. and my roomates were
adeline, wenqi, shiling, eugenia,
and jiani. Although didn't really
know them well, they were actually
really nice :D :D

WE went to this park and saw rainbows
twice! it was reeeeally prettaye la!(:
heheh. We also went to some wildlife
park and saw kangaroos, walabeees,
koalas and many other animals.
We even fed the kangaroos! heheh :/
its was uber fun!

Another day, which i can't remember
which, =x we went to the beach and
managed to see the sunset! it was
B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L !
really really nice. Cause in singapore,
we don't usually have time to go to
the beach to watch the sunset. yeapp!

oh yes. We went sand boarding.
it was a good experience lar. But
a terrible one too. The day we got
to eat sand. HAHAHA :/
while climbing up the sand 'slope'
the wind was blowing and sand
was blown into our ears, eyes and
mouth. and we ate sand lar. hahah.
Sliding down the sand was totally
awesome lar! but once we slide down,
we have to climb all the way up again.
So it was really tiring, as our feet sink
into the sand. When we left that area,
our hair was filled with sand and most
of us felt like we haven't bathe for years!
lols. HAHA. anyway, shopping was good
especially at habour town mall.
Me and adeline bought quite alot of things.

A different experience for me this time round.
I really didn't regret choosing to go perth (:
yay ay ay! awesome lar! :D

okay. now i have to prepare for all the other
things already. EEEEKS. the only break is now over.
I wanna buy a one way ticket to perth!
HAHAH :/

2006-05-24T17:17:00.000+08:00

hmm, i didn't go to school today.
was sick. eeks. i hate to be sick.
just down with some flu and sore throat.
and pratically, i've been sleeping the whole
day, cos of the drowsy medicine.

YAY. three more days before i leave
for perth :D :D
i can't waittt =/ psssst.
gees. i don't feel like blogging already.

2006-05-21T20:57:00.000+08:00

sigh. i don't know what's making me
feel this way. I've been feeling down
for some time, for some reason.
A bit of everything just messes me up.
Questions just run through my head.

Am i so insignificant?
Whatever la. people might just say
i'm wallowing in self-pity. But does
it even matter at all? In fact, it
doesn't.

I've been trying to stop thinking
about all the stupid things.
But how can i? When i spend the
whole day at home entertaining
myself with VCDs. The other thing
i could do was to sleeeep or i could
study. but how the hell can i have
the mood to study?!

And yeah. I slept for like 2 or 3 hours
in the afternoon just to kill time.
So that i won't think so much.
I don't even know what i'm thinking.
For now, there seems as if I have
all the time in the world. But days
later, it'll be the exact opposite.
Everything will in a rush.
So many things to settle before
I leave for perth. And i hope that
leaves me no time to think of any
stupid thing which makes me feel
so tired and hopeless.

Everyone just want to be happy
don't they ? But why is it so
hard? I have no idea either.
Tell me THIS IS LIFE.
I KNOW IT.
and i hate the way it is.

The love to keep me safe and warm ?

llet em yhw si taht os tnatropmi.
i wonk ti smees sa fi gnihtyreve si llew.
tub i t'nod kniht os.

2006-05-18T19:24:00.000+08:00

okay. i've gotten back all my results.
It was really, well, DEMORALISING. yes.
i know i can't carry on like this.
I have to like work much much harder
for the next term.

I've really got ALOT to do in the holidays.
its packed. Guess it sorta stresses me
out when i think of it. It is SO SO SO
HECTIC! argh. i know i know. Its all about
time management. i'm so tired.

But that can't stop me from being excited
about going to perth! :D :D yay yay yay!
that's the only break i'm going to have i guess!
ONE MORE WEEK! (:

When you're safe inside your room you tend
to dream,

Of a place where nothing's harder than it
seems.

2006-05-10T20:18:00.000+08:00

oh well, exams are finally over.
i guess i was so excited for exams to be
over then. but now, it seems like nothing
much lar yeah. gees. just hope to do well.
And some subjects, i'll just pray for a
passing mark. I just feel like i really worked
hard. but i'll never be confident of getting
good results, somehow i just know i won't.
In the end, my results ain't good at all.
Does this mean i didn't study hard enough?
does this mean that i didn't put in
enough effort?
does this mean my method of studying is wrong?
GEES. i have no idea at all! =x
okay nevermind.

yay i watched MI3 today!
It's a really really cool show mann. All
those gadgets were totally awesome.
HAHAH. finally got to relax (:
it sure feels good, but i'm still
very worried about my results lar =/
Anyway, i had a great time today! :D :D

To come and think of it, I have many many
things i wanna do in the holidays!

1. I want to lose weight! GEES. hit the GYM! =/
2. Learn cooking skills from mummy(:
3. Take dance lessons :D :D
4. To study on a regular basis.
5. Baking! (x
6. Spend more time with my loved ones. (=

Well, these are the five things i wanna do i guess.

But what i have to do is a different thing.

All i can think of is stjohn. stjohn and stjohn.
hp training, hp assesment, comp training
and the annual st john camp. gees!
lols. Training can be pretty enjoyable sometimes!
really! But sometimes it can be pretty tiring
and stuff la. Its always the same. The usual.

I really hope i can at least fufil one of the things
i want to do in the holidays. I know it'll be
really difficult la. but i'l ltry! :D

Yay i'm really looking forward to the perth trip!
17 more days! HAHAH. i'll leave singapore
and take a break from EVERYTHING HERE!
but yes of course i'll miss my darlings. lol
okay. still have another 2 weeks to go.
I SHALL WAIT. Patiently. (:

i'm so so tired. i shall sleeep early today (:

2006-05-06T09:26:00.000+08:00

yay! we're halfway through the exams!
4 more papers to go! some have 3 more.
I wouldn't really want to comment on the
papers. I just think i'll flunk them for
whatever reasons. gees.

Went to crystal's house for the past
few days to STUDY. yeaps.
I'm always waiting for exams to end =/

yeah. but once the exams end,
everything will start coming back again.
like all the cca stuff. blahblah.

few more papers to go people :D

mwah!
i love everyone! <3
Fancy feeling high during exams.
i suppose to dread them =/
i think i'm going crazy.
HAHAH.

2006-04-28T19:40:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONGQIANG ! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLIE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERMAINEEEEE! (:

yay. so many people's birthday today.
I mean like so many people's birthday
falls on APRIL! lol. okay. anyway
best wishes to all of you!
and MUG HARD yeah! :D

2006-04-27T21:39:00.000+08:00

okay. today was paper 1 for both english
and chinese. I think it was okay luh.
But i forgot to write the title for
chinese gong han! oh my. That's
like so stupid luh. 1 mark gone! zzz.
i was so careless lar.

At first i thought only my left knee
was injured with the irregular
cartilage problem. But i realise my
right knee is the one giving me
problems now! It is hurting like
alot la. the clicking sound on the
right knee is so much louder
than the left knee! LOLS. not that
i go and listen to my knee!
The doctor told me that the clicking
sound was because of irregular
cartilage luh! zzz.

I think i'm not
gonna do PE for a long long long long
time! not that i don't wanna do. But
because i can't! alright. i shall stop
whining about my knee and continue
to study!

chinese and english paper 2
tomorrow!
ALL THE BEST EVERYONE!

Oh yes. yesterday was shiya's birthday
and today is Huannie's!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIYA! :D

and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUANNIE! (:

<3

2006-04-23T20:34:00.000+08:00

AMAZING - by westlife

You're like a storm against the window.
Follow me around just like a shadow.
I'll swim a never-ending ocean,
until you bring back your devotion.

It's like I live a thousand lifetimes.
Still looking for the one that feels right.
See, moving on just isn't working;
you lit the fire that I'm burning.

And all I can do is protect it,
A lie for the sake of my pride.
While all the others had me thinking,
we could be more than just amazing.

I guess I'm holding on to my faith.
A silent hope I'm heading your way.
And crawling over is so tempting;
We could be more than just amazing.

And all I can do is protect it,
a lie for the sake of my pride.
While all the others had me thinking,
we could be more than just amazing.

I couldn't see it;
I must have believed a lie.
If I admit it would you let me make it right?
(Amazing, Amazing, Amazing)
Is it all Wrong?
Oh no.
(Say it all..)
We could be more than just;
We could be more than just amazing.

And all I can do is protect it,
A lie for the sake of my pride.
And all the others had me thinking,
we could be more than just amazing.

And all I can do is protect it,
A lie for the sake of my pride.
While all the others had me thinking,
straight to the point of what I'm feeling,
Oh we could be more than just amazing.

2006-04-23T19:17:00.000+08:00

oh my 5 freaking days to exams!
I'm really studying very hard for
my mid years. and i definitely hope
i'll do well luh. To like improve and all.
I don't wanna fail anything. I hope
i won't fail Amath! i've like done so
so many questions and i just keep
doing them but somehow i just can't
remember when to use which formula.
eeks. okay. i had maths tuition today.
And i cleared my doubts on trigonometry :D
yay. I still have doubts to clear on quadratics
for Amath. gees! I stayed half an hour longer
than usual without knowing! means I was
quite hard working luh. lol. NAH. i don't
think so. LOL. I tink its because i don't feel so
tired today cos i've tried to sleep
early for the past week. And i guess
it works la! at least i don't fall sleep during
lessons now :D yay.
I can't wait for exams to end! I can't
wait to go to PERTH! I just can't wait!
It'll be fun i guess :D :D

ALRIGHT, BACK TO THE REAL WORLD!
I shall go mug SS now. (:

Thank you for making my day ! <3

2006-04-16T19:21:00.000+08:00

IT'S SO HARD TO BELIEVE.
Mid years are like 2 weeks away!
OH MY GOSH.
I'm gonna flunk my physics test tomorrow!
Nowadays i get tired like so so easily.
I hardly could study much in a day. It's
pretty frustrating la! Cause i can't get
anything into my head even though
I'm staring at the bloody book for
SO LONG! OKAY. i shall just relax,
and try another method of studying.
Well, this ain't the time to freak out la.
oh yes. I watched the movie TAKE THE LEAD
on friday! i thought it was pretty cool (:
the foxtrot salsa and those dances were
WAY WAY WAY WAY HOT! hehe.
I was thinking they could actually
mix ballroom dancing with hip hop!
totally cool lar! for those who likes to dance(:
It could kill to dance like that mann!

And i bought my brother his birthday
present even though his birthday is like
in may luh. Cause i figured out that i wouldn't
have time to go and buy when the exams start.
And I feel so broke now! I spent like ALOT
of money this weekend luh! i gotta start
saving up money to buy presents !
hmm. i woke up today and studied.
Ate lunch and then went for tuition.
Everyone looked tired there. HURHUR.
just that atmosphere la! heh.
After tuition, i went to play badminton
with my family yay! we'll trying to
make it a weekly event so we can spend
some time together (((:
But its quite difficult lar. yeapps.
by the way my mum's getting her new car
TOMORROW! i'm so so excited! (x
HAHA. alright, so much for the excitement,
i gotta go revise my physics already.

_________________________
STUDY HARD PEOPLE! LOVEEE<3

2006-03-27T21:40:00.000+08:00

! Zone competition is finally over.
And yeah. We got the champions once
again. Everyone put in alot of effort and
i think it was paid off. lols. But thats not
the end. National competition is in JULY!
Lots of training needed indeed.
______________________
ah. But i guess i'm really really tired lah.
I NEED TIME.
i want to catch up with my school work.
I need a break from all these. I'm feeling so
tired nowadays that i can hardly
concentrate during lessons. Which is
so frustrating. It is so difficult to split
myself when i have to do so many things
at a time. Some may say i didn't plan my
time well. perhaps. maybe. And i don't
know if my parents see me trying to
put in effort in my studies or not.
The impression they gave me was
that i was slacking all the way which
is so so untrue. Whats more frustrating
when you are trying so hard to study
and your parents just said you just
aren't studying hard enough. ARGH.
__________________
SOMEONE GIVE ME A BREAK!

2006-03-12T13:31:00.000+08:00

Hmm, i haven't been updating for almost
a month! I'm finally back from bonding
camp. The only 3 days to get away from
the 'real' world. Studies and training.
HURHUR.
____________
DAY 1
We reported to camp and sat down
in classes. Then put our belongings
in the dormitory and settled down. They
broke us into groups and all. Our group
instructor was Jessie! She was quite okay
la. But just abit soft spoken at first!
i mean AT FIRST. hahah. Then we did
the flag and practiced the campfire
performance. Nothing much la. Then it
was six plus and all of us were starving
to death la. When we saw what was
given to us, we all complained la. LOL.
It was definitely TOO little. I wasn't even
half full after eating it. lol. gees. After that
was the night games. It was pretty boring
lah. LOL. Then it was finally bathing time.
there was only three cubicles for like 200+
of us! So there was only like 2 minutes for
each person in a cubicle. Horrendous la.
Many of us didn't get to bath. Then they
were pretty disorganised when arranging
the safari beds la. Lots of communication
break down. HURHUR.
Lights out only at around 12 i tink.
___________________
DAY2
We woke up and wash up .
Had some station games and went
to the BEACH! Played some captain's
ball and stuff. Weepeng and yiyee going
so crazy. lols. Not forgetting the hot sand
which made all of us jump at first. lols.
It was definitely much better than staying
at the campsite. Had campfire that night.
It was okay. But not high enough i suppose
and it ended too early! Cause of the
washing up time i guess. LOL. Went
back to campsite for debrief and supper.
They said they'll give us 15 minutes
to eat the extra food but when we settle
down, there was only 4minutes left.
Everyone just went to sleep.
I'll never forget Jessie's evil LAUGH.
hurhur.(:
_____________________
DAY3
Day 3 was pretty screwed up la. Played the
amazing race. Many people in the group
can't be bothered to run and make the
group high. They just took their time
and walked slowly, knowing we'll always
wait for them to catch up. It was so
frustrating lah! Went back to the camp
after the race and had lunch. Cleaned up
the campsite and got ready to go home.
After we were dismissed from camp, met
my pretty dearies crystal and clarice at
habourfront and went to eat our dinner
at the mall. As usual, we had our talk.
HURHUR and we ate REAL food. haha.
_______________________

This camp definitely made
3E bond much closer i guess. But i was
sure there are still people who didn't give
a damn to 3E and was showing attitude
through out the camp. They didn't
participate in activities and just wanted
to slack throughout. WHY? i don't know.
Is it so difficult just to be enthusiastic with
the class? I don't know la.
Overall i thought that the camp could
be much better. Like more organised and all.
And not giving different instructions by the
instructors causing the whole thing to be
screwed up la.
But i was sure i knew some people better
through the camp and they were really nice
people yay! I hope 3E would remain this bonded
and maybe even more bonded in the future!
Hopefully the 'exceptional' ones would become
enthu as well (:
__________________
OKAY. I'M BACK TO THE REAL WORLD.
Training at Headquarters tomorrow.
JIAYOU NC2! SMILES (:

2006-02-18T21:58:00.000+08:00

hmm, shall start with Valentine's day.
yeapps. the day where all of us went
all broke. hehe. I believe many of us
were exctited about valentine's day.
yeapps. The whole school had the
' valentine's ' day atmosphere la.
Many were running around giving
their presents to their friends and
loved ones early in the morning.
HAHAH. Well, thanks for all the gifts
yeahh (: and it was sure one of the best
days of my life ((: TEEHEES.
________________

15th feb was total defence day!
lols. the canteen wasn't open, so we
had to survive on the rations the school
gave us. Well, the food was OKAY la.
hahah. It wasn't just total defence day,
it's the day where three of my dear
classmates celebrate their birthday!
happy belated birthday to
CHUNPENG, JINXIAO and YIYEE (:
yay. hmmm. Den we had CCA yesterday
lah. Had PT, Triage and squad drill.
yeapps. We haven't done a triage for
like donkey years. TEEHEES.
so good job cos ICs! as well as all
the first aiders! (:
__________________

And yeah. you take care alrights!
much LOVE. (:

2006-02-12T09:22:00.000+08:00

oh my! The welcome party is
finally over! All that planning
and preparation have finally
come to an end
FOR THE TIME BEING.
hurhur. It rained on friday la.
And i wasn't concentrating
during lessons at all. I
couldn't. i was thinking about
the back up plan and all.
hahah. But well, i think for
the first time, sqd three did
quite okay! TEEHEES.
SQD THREE JIAYOU! (:
yays. hehe. As usual,
today is mugging
day. hehe. physics test on monday!
I AM SO DEAD. alrights, i better
get on with mugging now (:

2006-02-03T21:27:00.000+08:00

I'm so lazy to blog nowadays!
heehees. Oh well, chinese new year
is over! i meant like the first few
days la. Had cca today. The
secondary ones just came in today!
15 girls 4 guys. i tink, if i didn't
remember wrongly. gees!
Wells, had PT again. hahah.
and yeap, as usual, wobbly hands
after physical training. AHAHA.
After cca, we had to do the
presentation for the welcome
party proposal lahs.! hees.
den yeah we were dismissed
at like 8 la. after changing and
stuff, went home feeling tired,
drained and all la. hees. those
usual stuff.
And OH YES. i'm so looking
forward to tomorrow!
Our squad is going to crystal's
house for visiting! yay.
hehe. It's gonna be a busy
week ahead lah! With
training, third lang, tests and
also preparation for the welcome
party! yeapps. Time management.
lols. i know! alrights. gonna
start mugging soon. (:

2006-01-28T10:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the cny performance!
hahaha. well, i did do some wrong
moves la. but i enjoyed myself on
the stage anyway. teehees(=
Hope our hard work is considered
paid off. haha. but yeah. i'm sure
all of us was having a great time
on stage with those smiles on our
faces. Hopefully next year we'll be
the ones sitting at the audience,
watching our juniors perform!
HAHAHA. next year, that is.
_______________
thanks for yesterday afternoon.
It was really great(:
and i bought i top for my sister.
she really she liked it alot. yay!.
haha. Chinese new year's like
tomorrow! i can hardly wait!
TEEHEES (:
enjoy the new year peeps!

_________________

And yes, a new begining (=

2006-01-21T18:13:00.000+08:00

Well, had cca yesterday.
Had physical training again.
Most of us endured through lahs.
yay. hehe. After pt, had some HP
games to link up some story.
We got third la. hehe. so tyco.
lols. Stayed back after cca to
do the alphabets for CNY.
As well as to practice dance for
audition today. yeapps. And st john
got through the audition! yeah. yay.
hees. We're happy la but not proud
or honoured or whatever la, cause
there is some reason behind it. yeaps.
_____________

AH! Now the common tests are coming
already! Like three tests a week lah!
OH MY. i have lots to study.
alrights, shall go mug now.
take care people. (:

2006-01-21T18:03:00.000+08:00

Can somebody explain to me
Why everybody is tryin' to be
Livin' like a celebrity
Doin' what they see on MTV
Ice is cool but I'm looking for more
Simple things is what my heart beats for (cause that's me)
I don't ask for much (baby)
Having you is enough
________________
You ain't got to buy nothin'
It's not what I want
Baby it's you
We don't have to go nowhere
It's not what I want
Baby it's you
It's not 'bout what you got
I know you got a lot
No matter what you do, you always gettin hot
Its you
Its you
Baby all I want is you, yeah
______________________
It doesnt matter that your car is fly
And your rims are spinnin' on the side and
It don't matter where we go tonight
Cause if I'm with you I'll be alright
That's cool, but I'm lookin' for more
It's your love that my heart beats for
Cause that's me
Don't have to spend a dime
Baby
I just want your time
_______________
You ain't got to buy nothin'
It's not what I want
Baby it's you
We don't have to go nowhere
It's not what I want
Baby it's you
It's not 'bout what you got
I know you got a lot
No matter what you do, you always gettin hot
Its you
Its you
Baby all I want is you
________________

You ain't got to buy nothing'
It's not what I want
Baby it's you
We don't have to go nowhere
It's not what I want
Baby it's you
It's not 'bout what you got
I know you got a lot
No matter what you do, you always gettin hot
Its you
Its you
Baby all I want is you

2006-01-15T11:13:00.000+08:00

Well, mock competition is finally over.
No doubt it's true everyone wants to do well.
And of course it isn't an easy job. All that
hardwork put in. Many just want to see
something come of out of it. Some were
happy with their results. Some demoralised
by it. While the others..perhaps neutral?
I don't know. Argh! Sometimes I hate the
fact that when some people are happy,
there are definitely others who are sad
and upset and all. All that stress, sadness,
and even going to the extend of a possibilty
of breaking down, just for a chance to learn?
It's just not fair. Sad to know it's the cruelity
of reality. We just got to accept it.
But I really hope despite all these, please
please please don't ever give up. If you do,
it's equivalent to throwing away all the
effort all of you put in for the past few months.
It's really not worth it. Tell yourself.
YOU CAN DO IT, AND YOU WILL DO IT.
We'll continue to work hard. It's the journey
where all the hardships you've endured with
your team that is important, the times when
we all cry and laugh together. All who took
part did a great job. We'll learn and work
hard together. And at the end of the day,
we'll find it ever more so rewarding with the
experience and the memories we gain through
all these.
_____________________

After mock comp yesterday, crystal
went back to my house to get her stuffs.
Then, getting changed and all, we went
to eastpoint to have our dinner. We were
almost late for the concert band concert lahs!
GEEs. Then we went to sit with hongchew
and the rest la. That group of fun and whacky
people. They're really fun to be with! yeahh.
The concert was good la. Enjoyed myself.
Atmosphere was high la and everyone just
seemed happy for that moment. After the
concert ended, crystal and I went to Simpang
for some prata and milo! hehe. Then i took
the bus and went home. Upon reaching home,
i felt so so so tired and drained la. I fell onto
my bed, and slept. teehees.

___________________

Well, since it's over, it's time to study and
catch up with school work and all. Time to
do homework! TEEHEES (:

._keep pressing on and we'll all make it through.

2006-01-13T21:35:00.000+08:00

TIRED.

2006-01-11T22:30:00.000+08:00

Hmm! It's like 3 days away!
It hasn't been easy I must say.
Trying to be optimistic for every training.
Trying to be happy, enthusiastic and all.
It does work la. At least it boosts
my team's morale. Hmm, well
honestly i'm not hoping for alot
this time. I'm just gonna do what
I can. If i can't meet the expectations,
I wanna apologise to my instructors.
They tried hard to train us. Maybe
I'm just not up to it. But I promise you
we'll do our best! (:
Well, as for my team mates, I know
it isn't a very smooth thing lah.
But you guys gotta admit it's better
than the last time rite?! hehehe. I just
keep hoping for the better la!
hmm, guess all the teams
are equally stressed la!
NC2 you can do it! JIAYOUSS!
ALL THE BEST FOR MOCK COMP(:

#. Keep pressing on and we'll make it through! (: __ . #____________________

empty ; weightless ; peace

2006-01-07T12:37:00.000+08:00

The first week of school has just ended.
Everything in school seems just fine. I
mean during the curriculum only. hees.
Orientation was okay yesterday(:
St john was doing drill and it suddenly
rained. uhh. and everyone got all wet.
First cca of the year. Well, it was okay
lah. Did some pumpings and jumping
jacks. Haven done it for quite some
time already. It's good to do it again.
hahah =p. But due to lack of sleep
the past few days, everyone was just
so so so so tired after cca. We all
hardly had strength to carry the
uniform and bags and stuff home. lols.
Hmm, okay. So i already know the
date la. Don't wanna comment anything
Cause many people already know what
i was going to say here. hahah!=p.
___________________

For the peeps who had cheered me up,
telling me all about confidence, faith, and
optimism, I really appreciate it.
THANK YOU (:

2006-01-04T19:43:00.000+08:00

Hmm, second day of school.
Well, everything seems fine in school.
It's getting nearer and nearer.
I don't know what to do, except
to do my best. That's what i'm
suppose to do i think. I did try,
but i get so angry with myself for
spending hours without getting
anything done. People would say
then that's not my best. But i'll
say at least I've tried. I really don't
want to let myself down. I'm just
tired. tired tired tired. I can't do it.
More and more things coming in.
I really don't think i can handle these
stuff altogether. Every single day,
I worry about the same thing. I don't
know why. Sometimes i just want to
sleep, sleep through the days without
knowing anything. I don't want to face
reality, knowing how cruel it can be
sometimes. I'm just a coward. Just
someone hiding. I don't know how to
overcome it. And I know, no one can
help me. Only I can help myself. I'm
just confused. who can i turn to?

empty ; weightless ; peace
__________________

and my computer's internet connection isn't
good lah. keeps on getting disconnected.
argh!

2005-12-29T19:03:00.000+08:00

It's 29th december already
The new year's approaching real fast la.
Lots to say for the past year. yeah.
From the start of 2005, till the last
day of school, many things happened.
I wouldn't say it was a bad year cause
there were things which made me happy
.yeap (:

I look back at this year.
The blank piece of paper which
I had at the starting of this year, it had
been filled with all the colours, with all
the people and things in my life. There
were good times, as well as bad.
Sometimes i wonder if it's all planned.
I don't know. And i will think what's
tomorrow gonna be like. Not like when
i was younger, when everything was
all in place, and we just had to do as told.
I would say it's rather different now.
yeah. Now that i've grown, not alot
though, there are things that i'll have to
decide by myself. yep. and every
decision i make, i may not just affect
myself, but also other people. Thus,
i might have caused some disagreements
la. I'm really sorry for that. Some things
showed that i'm just a weakling and simply
cant handle anything. While some showed
that i was up to it to do what i had to.
___________________
Well, it was a quick 2005.
I remembered myself whining about
having to transfer class. But now that
i look back, im glad i was transferred.
Not that i dislike 1F or wad, but i
just got to know more people. yeah.
People came in and out of my life.
Some stayed, and some left when i was
in need. i clearly saw who really were
true to me and also who were the ones
who didn't care. Those who stayed, I
really appreciate for all the things you
have done for me. In times of difficulty
, they were there for me. (:
Throughout the year, some made me sad,
made me happy, made me cry and smile,
some set me thinking and many other things
lah. No matter what you did, i really
wanna thank you people for making
my life so colourful. Whether, you came
into my life and left, or you stayed.
THANK YOU!(:
________________
New year, new resolutions. I've
set a goal, and i hope i can achieve it
yeapps (:_

2005-12-26T10:03:00.000+08:00

yay. okay. im finally back. back
from rome this morning. well,
the trip is pretty fun i suppose.
hahaha =p. made some new
friends. yeah. the whole tour group
was filled with so many nice people
la. and our tour guide was the jovial
and humourous Sexy And Macho.
SAM! hahaha=p. okay.dat was alil
stupid. but that's what he calls himself.
yeah. uhh, nevermind. Well, It was sorta
a totally new experience for me lah. The
tour guide said we were lucky to see snow
on the 1st day of the tour. yeapp. i acttually
experienced snow! hahaha.=p. I'm just
fascinated. lol. i managed to put the
problems aside la. at least i enjoyed myself .
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Shall just have a brief post about
the tour lah. i cant remember which day
and the places we went. and furthermore,
the names of the places and the monuments
are so difficult to remember! zzz. Went to
mount titilus by cable car. it was like
pretty fun lah. cause the winds were pretty
strong and the cable car had to stop in the
middle of nowhere. and at the 1st stop, the
operators were suppose to change the wire.
i guess something went wrong and
the cable car in front hit our cable car, and
the one behind us also hit the car my family
was in. hees. it was okay la. but my mum
was pretty freaked out. TEEHEES. oh well
the other mountain i went was jungfraujoch,
which is the top of europe. It was really high la.
we had to take 2 hours of train
to get up there. once we reached the top, after
walking for afew minutes, i blacked out. hees.
i was the 1st one. so dui lian. =x. heez.
altitude sickness. after i recovered, my dad,
bro and me went to the plateau to just look
around. It was freezing la. minus 30 smth
degrees i tink. i cant remember. we went
out for afew seconds and after coming back,
there was ice on our face. hahaha=p. it was
reallly cold la. oh yes! the scenery in
switzerland was absolutely beautiful! especially
when going up the mountains. The scenery
were filled with 'white' mountains, lakes and
the trees. It just feels so comfortable looking
at it. Well, the stuff there were pretty expensive
la. i mean very. So we didnt buy much stuff.
Furthermore, the schedule was quite tight,
therefore there isnt much time to shop. We
went to venice also. and we sat the
gondole.pretty cool anyway (=.
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And i realised something. Italian
people have alot of body language. heez. i was
pretty fascinated. My parents and I were
at milan when we saw a car almost collided
with a bicycle. den the cyclist immediately
gave the hand signal to scold him.
not the middle finger la. but like when
you put all your fingertips together. like
what was mentioned in the russel peters
comedy lah. and the car driver gave back
the same signal. zzzz. i find it weird. heez.
okay. Also, in Italy, you have to pay 0.60-1.00
euro to use the toilet and the ratio is like
1 euro : 2 sing. so it's like damn expensive
to use the toilet in italy. Basically, the
countries we went was switzerland, germany,
and Italy. yeap. I like switzerland the
most lah. yay. (:
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Guess i have missed out quite abit in
singapore lah. The HP opening in sentosa,
as well as the sqd xmas party. hees. i will
find out more about it from my dear
sqdmates anyway. xmas is over now. which
means a new year is approaching. gotta do
lotsa stuff before school reopens. alrights.
take care ppl! (:

2005-12-15T17:20:00.000+08:00

Going overseas means I'm gonna
have alot of time without my friends.
which also means im gonna
think alot during this trip . i
seriously don't know if it's good or
bad. And sometimes i don't wanna
know. There seems like there are
so many problems that i can't solve.
maybe i lack self confidence or what.
i can't tell. because i don't know.
i can't help feeling negative about
everything all the time. I have no
idea why. There are indeed wonderful
people around me. They are simply great
friends. But sometimes it isn't nice to
just keep adding to their problems.
i believe they themselves have their
stuff to settle too. I just hope I'm gonna
make the best out of this trip and
just enjoy the times. It's not gonna
be easy for me. but I'm still going
to try. I WILL! hahaha =p
And I'll just hope things will
turn out just fine. (:

2005-12-15T10:53:00.000+08:00

okay! today im leaving already.
hahah. i know i know i have been
saying that for the last few posts
la. TEEHEES (:
i don't know mann. i just feel like
im gonna miss out alot here la.
anyway, i just wanna wish you all
HAPPY EARLY CHRISTMAS!
lols. that's cause i won't be back
till like after christmas la.
which is the 26th la. Well,
enjoy the christmas with
your friends and family alright!
im sure you all gonna have
a real fun time!
In the mean time, i'll just
miss you all la. hahaha! =p
okay. take care people! (:

2005-12-13T10:59:00.000+08:00

wheee! my sqd mates are
finally back yesterday!
hahaha =p. im like so happy luhhs
i missed them like crazy la.
hehes. these 4 days without
them were like passing so
slow.yeah. so i conclude
they really are part of my
life already la. like DUH la.
hahaha. okayys. im leaving
soon la.which is on thursday.
sigh. im gonna leave singapore
for 12 days lah. which is like
almost 2 weeks =(. but im pretty
excited. haha. im gonna go
somewhere which is cold cold
cold! hahaha! okay. okay.
i know i sound like some little
kid so excited to go overseas.
im sure it's gonna be fun la. yeah.
i know im a lil crazy luh. but
im really gonna miss everyone
here lah. yupps.

empty ; weightless ; peace

2005-12-08T23:23:00.000+08:00

tomorrow is the day!

hurhur. when all my dear

sqdmates will be going for their

NCO camp. yupyup.

all the best peeps! i'm

gonna miss you all mann.

my heart and soul is gonna

be with you all! i give you all

moral support yeah!

love you guys loads!

take care and jiayou!! (:

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while you all in camp,

i'll be at home thinking of

you guys. trust me. I WILL

okayy! (:

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i'll be going overseas soon.

leaving on the 15th

i guess i'll be spending

my christmas on the plane.hees.

it's pretty sad though. but a different

christmas anyway. at least

i'll be spending it with my family.

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guess sometimes being alone is

good. yeah. but not for a long period

of time. can be disastrous sometimes.

lols. when you start to ponder upon

those unanswered questions.

all the 'whys' .

yeahh. its kinda bad. haha.

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When there's no one else

Look inside yourself

Like your oldest friend just

Trust the voice within

Then you'll find the strength

That will guide your way

You'll learn to begin to

Trust the voice within

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#__. the voice within__.

2005-12-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

okay. my fever's gone.
left with my sore throat, flu
and bad cough. urgh.
another day rotting
at home. hurhur. ate the
medicine and felt tired so i went
to sleeeep.heez. so i was sleeping
my day away again. i tried to
read and memorise some theory
but in the end, i fell alseep on
my table.zzz.

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seriously there is no point.
NO POINT.its ain't worth it either
I just don't wanna care
anymore.

empty ; weightless ; peace

2005-11-30T21:05:00.000+08:00

okay. today is the last official training.

hurhur. i feel kinda accomplished.

hees. though its like a small thing,

but yeah i feel accomplished.

i said 4 theories while reporting.

lols. not a big deal though.

okay. after training, i felt exceptionally

TIRED. zzz. i totally had no strength

to walk. i was hungry and just wanted

to eat something sweet.

ordered an ice jelly. ate it

and i realise i started shivering.

on the other hand,

i was sharing a hokkien mee with

sabbie and adeline

and my hands were trembling

and i couldnt feed myself.

WAD IS DIS! lols.

i felt retarded then. and both

of them resorted to feeding

me the noodles. hurhur.

how pathetic!urgh. after eating

took bus 14 home. i slept

in the bus and almost overshot.

phew. luckily i woke up in time.

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i was freezing in a minute ago

and the next minute i felt

warmer than usual. urgh.

im feeling sick. sorta down with

a fever now =(. its SAD.

i just have to listen to my

mummy and stay at home

and ' drink lotsa water! '

empty ; weightless ; peace

2005-11-26T14:47:00.000+08:00

TIME FLIES.
you people have to agree
with me. farewell had already
past. hmm. i just feel that
the atmosphere yesterday
was kinda weird la.
its like just WEIRD.
maybe its because alot of
us had too many things
on our mind. and also,
today there is the nco course
for the sqd threes. but i didnt
register anyway. lols. hmm, i believe
we were all lack of sleep la.
since that time the ltp presentation.
1 whole week of trainings
plus farewell preparations and
dance practices, has indeed tire
us all out and feeling drained
everyday we go home.zzzzz.
im gonna take a break after
the official trainings, though
there will still be illegal ones.
geez. nc2 jiayou! i can feel it
coming le! yups. if we work hard,
we'll definitely improve! (:
smiles!
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well, to my dear sqd 4'05
seniors, thank you for everything
you have taught us and also to guide
us through this 1 year. yup. you
all have done a great job and i believe
you all will always be remembered
by us as great seniors. we wish
you all the best! we'll miss you. (=

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oh yes. its hongchew's birthday today!
im gonna sing you a happy birthday song
hurhur. here it goes.
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happy birthday to you!
happy birthday to you!
happy birthday to hongcheww
happy birthday to you!.
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alright. im not gonna be naggy
and all kay. just a short message
fo you (:
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it's been nice being in
the same class as you. yep.
and of course, you being my godbro.
haha. lots of laughter that
i cant forget with you around.
remember to take care of yourself
okay? all the best in everything you
do! smiles* (:

lots of love,
from your jie. (x

2005-11-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

oooh. im so totally stil
in the hua-chi mood
oops. hees. well,
its like i rather be in the
hua-chi mood loh than to settle
down.coz i feel happier?
my dear wong knows why.
hees(: LOLS. hmm,
i just got a hair cut afew days
ago, and it is like abit too
short =X i can spike it mann
zzz. when i wake up in
the morning, my hair look
like i delibrately spike it.
hurhur. umm, i guess training
for me have been quite
alright for these few days.
pretty tiring though, but its
okay. we've got a tight schedule
the following week mann. really busy.
LTP, comp training, rehearsel,
banner and farewell performance.
yupyup.just this folllwing week.
im really gonna take a break
hees. wong and me are so
in love with this song!
whee. haha. i tink
i've been eating ALOT
this few days. i am so sinful.
heez. with the buffet dinner
and all. if i continue eating
at this rate, im gonna explode.
hurhur. exercise will do (:
hmm. im craving for ice cream
again. arghh. dats bad. i gotta
control. you know *control*
LOLS!
anyway, i still love my 2E.
no particular special person
in the class though, but
i love 2E as a whole coz its
special! get it? maybe
my love for 2E might not
be as deep as those who were
in 1E, coz of the time spend
together. and also, i normally
hang out with my cca friends.
to me, i felt its kinda of a pity,
coz im not very close to
the people in 2E. blehh.
but of course this year in
2E have brought me both happy
and sad memories. yeah.
oh 2E 2E 2E! love you people
loads!
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empty ; weightless ; peace